Farewell, Manoy

March 26th, 2009

This is the second time this month that I am saying goodbye. This time, though, it’s to someone much more closer.

My brother-in-law passed away this morning. Everything just happened too fast. They found him unconscious at home yesterday afternoon and rushed him to the hospital. The doctors said he ruptured a nerve in the brain, which caused blood to spill on most parts of his brain. I think the medical term is aneurysm.

He was unconscious when they found him and he remained unconscious until he passed earlier today. He was 44 and is survived by my sister and their three children.

I saw last him in December when I went home for Christmas vacation. We didn’t really talk much because I was busy with a lot of things. Looking back, I regret not spending more time with him then; I should have talked to him more. We didn’t even get to drink beer together or go to a KTV that time, something that we did a couple of times before when I went home — something that I know he enjoyed but couldn’t do more often.

He was the one who inspired me to learn guitar when I was in high school. “Chicks dig guys who can play the guitar,” he told me once. So I practiced and practiced until I was good enough to join a band. And he was right.

When they were living in Naga, I remember visiting them from Manila for a few days. He took me out for beer and we got really drunk. And then he took me to the restaurant at the ground floor of Crown Hotel and we had the best beef brisket I’d ever tasted. Until now, I don’t know if it tasted really good because it was really good. Or if I was just too drunk to know better. We never had a chance to go back sober to try their beef brisket again.

My memories of him are few. And because of that, I will miss him more. I should have spent more time with him.

Manoy,  I’d smoke with you once again even though I had already quit. If only we could. You were a good man who loved my sister and my nephew and nieces — in your own special way.

We will miss you. Say hi to Papa for us.

Farewell, FrancisM

March 6th, 2009

A few minutes ago, I received a message from Cowpunk, a friend in Singapore, on Yahoo! Messenger. He sent a sad emoticon, and then a link.

Francis Magalona, The Mouth, The Man From Manila — passed away at 12:00 noon today.

I did not know him personally,  but I saw him a few times at parties (Cowpunk was a good friend of his). I grew up listening to his music though. He was 44 years old. He is survived by his wife Pia and their eight children.

As of this writing, hundreds of people have already said their goodbyes to him on his Multiply page. Probably more would leave messages if it didn’t require creating a Multiply account.

Farewell, FrancisM. We’ll see you again. But not yet… not yet.

Verification Image Security Code Does Not Appear on phpLD Site

February 25th, 2009

I created a Web directory last week using phpLD, but I didn’t have time to test it until yesterday. When I tried to submit a link as a user, I noticed that the Verification Image Security Code (similar to Captcha), which helps prevent automated submissions, did not appear at all. Instead, it showed the text “Verification Image Security Code”.

I tried looking for a fix on the phpLD forum, but all I got was “your GD library is not be bundled with PHP”. I didn’t know what that meant, so I asked my Web host if GD (image library) was bundled with PHP on my server. The support guy asked me to create and run a phpinfo page to check. True enough, GD was not included in my PHP installation. So I went back to the support guy, and this time, he told me to “customize” my PHP installation.

I have a VPS hosting account, so I have access to Web Host Manager (WHM). These are the steps that I performed:

  1. Log into my WHM account.
  2. Click Software > EasyApache (Apache Update).
  3. In the list of profiles to load, click the PHP Image Manipulation option.
  4. Click Build Profile Now.
  5. Follow the rest of the instructions on the setup wizard.

That’s it. After I rebuilt my PHP installation, I went back to my phpLD site, and there it was, the image code that was missing. Problem fixed.

php-image-manipulation-gd1

If Filipinos Could Run Like Somalis

August 30th, 2008

This is the Olympic story you almost never heard. This is the story of Samia Yusuf Omar, a 17-year-old female Somali sprinter who caught the attention of Olympic spectators in Beijing and around the world. Not because she won an Olympic event. But because she showed up and ran, despite the knowledge that there was no chance for her to win. An underdog in every aspect, Samia finished last in the 200-meter dash event that she competed in.

“As Samia came down the stretch in her 200-meter heat, she realized that the Somalian Olympic federation had chosen to place her in the wrong event. The 200 wasn’t nearly the best event for a middle distance runner. But the federation believed the dash would serve as a “good experience” for her. Now she was coming down the stretch alone, pumping her arms and tilting her head to the side with a look of despair.

Suddenly, the half-empty stadium realized there was still a runner on the track, still pushing to get across the finish line almost eight seconds behind the seven women who had already completed the race. In the last 50 meters, much of the stadium rose to its feet, flooding the track below with cheers of encouragement. A few competitors who had left Samia behind turned and watched it unfold.”

After reading her story, I couldn’t help but realize that we Filipinos are still blessed in so many ways. Yes, we are poor, but probably not as poor as most Somalis. Yes, there is still a war in Mindanao, but it’s not as bad as the wars in other countries.

This is not to say that we should be content with being poor or that we should do nothing about the war in our own backyard. This is to say that we should stop yapping about how poor we are and start doing something about it.

We complain that we lack opportunities in the country. This is may be true; but I’ve seen some of us standing still when opportunities come. My own sister, a registered nurse, was offered a chance to work abroad. On the day she was supposed to meet with her potential employer, she didn’t show up. She probably didn’t take that opportunity seriously, thinking that there would be other better opportunities to follow. She forgot that almost every other person in the Philippines is a nurse or is studying to become a nurse. Even doctors go back to school to study nursing so they could work abroad as nurses. By the time my sister realized that it was a rare opportunity that she should not pass up on, the opportunity was gone, taken probably by someone more desperate, someone more deserving. Now, my sister is jobless. A registered nurse, true. But a jobless registered nurse.

My sister’s story is not a unique Filipino story. All too often, we Filipinos are afraid to try, probably because we’ve failed too many times before as a nation. But just because we have not succeeded as a nation doesn’t mean that we cannot succeed as Filipinos, albeit individual Filipinos.

We cannot control how our government is run because we’re not the ones who put our government officials in office. You think we do, but we don’t. Remember “Hello, Garci“? Oh, we forget too soon. Our collective amnesia makes us forget our ugly history time and again. From Marcos to Erap to Nano.

Our national history is rich with political and cultural lessons that we need to learn and remember. But what is it that makes remembering impossible for us to do? Is it the water that we drink or the food that we eat? Or is it our culture that stops us from trying harder to better ourselves? Is it our culture that foments lethargy, indifference, and forgetfulness?

If we can learn to remember the ugly lessons of our nation’s collective past, maybe, just maybe, we can also learn how to run like Samia.

Give and Take

July 12th, 2008

I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart.

For example, one evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, “I don’t feel like it, I just want you to hold me.”

I said, “WHAT?! What was that?!”

So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear…

“You’re just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man.”

She responded to my puzzled look by saying, “Can’t you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?”

Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.

The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn’t decide which one to take, so I told her we’d just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said, “Lets get a pair for each outfit.”

We went on to the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you… she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn’t even know how to play tennis.

I think I threw her for a loop when I said, “That’s fine, honey.” She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation, she finally said, “I think this is all
dear, let’s go to the cashier.”

I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, “No honey, I don’t feel like it.”

Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled, “WHAT?”

I then said, “Honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You’re just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman.”

And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, “Why can’t you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?”

Apparently I’m not having sex tonight either… but at least that bitch knows I’m smarter than her.

Note: I stumbled into this anecdote on a forum that I don’t even remember, and I thought it would be a great filler. I hope you enjoyed it!